Sunday, November 17, 2013

Simbiosis

Bismillah.


These 2 weeks had taught me a lot of things. Being with these people make me understand how important ukhuwaah is. You cannot live alone. The presence of your loved ones does give difference to your life. That’s what I thought.



Kawan-kawan yang dermawan, sekali terpandang pasti terkenang, rindu bertamu hati tertawan (acewah)





Attending the seminar is another thing to talk about. It was loaded with lots of information. We were told that the offer which we had already accepted is very risky since even upon graduation, we are not guaranteed with any position, unless there is vacancy. Imagine how much pressure was it. Nah, not too much actually coz if we were not given any job, we are FREE to go; no longer attached to USIM. Yabedabedu aku bleh mintak UMT or UNISZA dekat umah hohohohohooh (gelak cara Haroro/Haha).





Takpelah, tu bab rezeki Allah. Da masuk tajuk lain.






There were so many other things we were exposed to and so many stories regarding our seniors’ journey to PhD. Ah, another thing. The seminar emphasized more on PhD candidates. Yeah, like what they said, postgrad study is merely a bridge towards PhD journey which is far much more challenging and full of anguish, chaos, havoc, ordeal, pain, predicament, turmoil, blablabla  (so many bizaree vocabs mehhh). Takpe, just go thru the flow you are meant to follow. I don’t know la. If you ask me how I feel about this, of course I’ll blatantly say that I am scared, vulnerable, fragile, insecure and so on, because the road is far. I’m just at the very beginning of it. However, I must pull myself together and perceiving things a glass half full and move on sturdily, for I know who is behind all these mess. ALLAH. Yes I said mess coz it’s a good thing to be in a mess actually. We will feel an urge hunch that we need to turn to Him for help and guidance. Yes, if Allah put you in the hardship, He’ll bring you through it. Yeah you can do it champs! And after the testing series of sufferings, you’ll rejuvenate at the sip of success at the very end of it all. Believe in that and you are okay with it. Bear with all of it. Coz for a worthless stone to become precious diamond, it had to withstand so much pressure. Yeah the journey is what counts most for you to taste the sweet nectar of success. So you might as well enjoy the ride.






Doing a research is not a sprint; it's a MARATHON







I thought I already had given my best shot during the proposal presentation. I hope everything will be sailing smooth, but again, a PhD is not a PhD if it is sailing smooth ahha. But there must be some degree of non-smoothness. Ehem. I hope Prof Ismail understood what I was babbling about. One thing I was corrected upon; the way I wrote the objectives. Yah that’s how being a human is. We make mistakes. We cannot expect that we are good in everything we do. Nobody is good in everything and nobody is baddd at everything. Haha quoted from The Strange Housekeeper.







Jannah kuasa dua in da house. double effect, double the fun hehehhee










Jealousy membelenggu diri saat melihat rakan-rakan memiliki office berhawa dingin yuols untuk study and buat revision, siap dengan cubicles untuk ruangan masing-masing. Jeles gile la kat korang. Arghh tidakkkkk, kenapa kat sini takde buat macam nie???! *stressed sambil tarik rambut*








Kalau diikutkan cerita daripada panel yang bagi ceramah, memang scary. Ada yang dah dekat nak habis kene tukar SV sebab SV meninggal la, pencen la, sakit la, macam-macam la. Yang paling sadis cerita Dr Neezam yang belajar kat Melbourne dulu. Dr Neezam cakap dia ada sorang senior. Lepas 2 tahun setengah buat PhD, dia kene tukar SV sebab mende aku pun lupa kahkah. SV dia sakit ke pencen aku tak pasti. Ehem. Pahtu, bila dapat je SV baru, SV dia tu tak bagi lulus dissertation! Kau bayangkan dasyatnya da dekat nak habis belajar alih-alih SV cakap thesis tak menepati level PhD research???? Gile. Memang gile lah. Tak tahu la salah sapa dalam hal tu. Salah student tu atau salah SV baru, atau salah SV lama. Kau rasa?






Dr Neezam sendiri pon, dia kalu ikutkan habis PhD dalam masa 2 tahun 9 bulan. Tapi sebab SV mek salehs tu duduk peram dissertation dia kat bawah meja, mende tu jadi delay dekat setahun. Kalau delay saje-saje takde masalah. Tapi ni delay yang melibatkan duit yuran yang wajib dibayar kalau tak memang tak boleh grad maknok. Tak tahu nape SV mek salehs tu melambatkan proses penyemakan thesis Dr Neezam. Padahal once da dapat kat external evaluator, memang sekejap je lepas. Macam-macam kes ade. Penat nak citer semua.







Kisah yang paling sweet aku dengar masa seminar tu, ada PhD student fly overseas dengan bertemankan suami/isteri. Ada satu kes ni, PhD student ni buat research pasal bidang yang memerlukannya guna software. Kebetulan suaminya orang computer. Si suamilah yang create software untuk memudahkan keje si isteri. Walawehh sweet bebenor la. Kes yang satu lagi, si suami buat PhD, si isteri tolong ajar si suami bahasa inggeris. Siap semak grammatical errors dalam writing lagi ahahahhaa. Seronok je dengar. That’s what we call mutual benefits.









Panel penceramah (PhD holders) yang muda-muda. Hmmm. Speechless.







 p/s: the joy of knowing something new is priceless. but the journey towards that is often defined as a painful series of hurdles and challenges. curiosity kills a cat, maybe cut a slit of a human's ego and claims your loyalty to His Almighty Allah. 






Masa pegi lawat baby baru yang comelssss. Tahniah Dr Siti atas kelahiran baby boy yg ensemmm!







travelling buddies





nota sakit kaki: Doing research is like playing golf, sooner or later you will reach the end road.

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