Friday, January 30, 2015

Jangan mudah menyerah kalah

In this life, if you wanna achieve things unimaginable, you will have to do things you had never done before. Be patient. You are fortuitous. You have access to a lot of resources and unlimited information at the tips of your fingers.


It's never been easy living here on the earth. You have to go with the flow and foster your inner strength for you to be able to cope with life hurdles. Never be broken by simple life blunder. The mistakes are there to be your best teacher.

Norma hati.

Hai Encik Hati. Apa khabar? Aku tanya apa khabar~






Macam lain macam dah rupa encik hati. Macam kurang mandi. Busuk dan kurang bermaya. Haha. Sembur perfume Davidoff skit boleh?






Hati ni memang susah nak jaga. Kadang dia okay. Kadang dia tunggang-langgang. Caca marba. Turbulence dalam hati sangatlah menggusarkan. Hati dengan akal fikiran adalah dua perkara berbeza. Kadang apa yang difikirkan logik oleh otak, tidak ditafsirkan hati dengan tafsiran yang sama. Hati kita ada otak dia sendiri. Hati atau heart dalam bahasa matsaleh ialah jantung bukan hati liver ye kawan-kawan? Ada paham. Pandanglah dengan mata hati. Mata jiwa. Mata yang dalam.




Pernah alami peperangan dengan perasaan dok? Otak kita tafsir ikut logik. Hati ikut emosi. Even dalam otak pun ada dua region yang tak tally dia punya reasoning. Contoh, prefrontal cortex yang deals with logical reasoning. Amygdala yang bentuk macam kacang badam plak deals with emotions. Kadang, prefrontal cortex (ubun-ubun) cakap sekian-sekian, tapi amygdala translate lain. Logical reasoning vs emotional stirs. So kita boleh rasa keliru dengan perasaan kita. Kita ni sedih ke kecewa ke content ke happy ke??? BEFUDDLING!






Amazing factoid huh? (macam betul tapi aku pon tak sure betul ke tak hahhhaha)





Well I am not a neuroscientist, but more to a violent sociopath (??!!!!!!!)






Kalau orang pompuan, akan ada masa dalam sebulan tu hati akan bermandi hormon. Estrogen namanya. Kalau hormon ni serang, memang akan angin tak tentu pasal. Haha! Biasalah perempuan kalau da PMS tu. Kau faham-faham sahajalah. Jangan dekat-dekat na?





At times, pompuan boleh je terkena mood swings. Tetiba rasa nak nangis. Tiba-tiba rasa cemburu tak pasal-pasal. Tetibe tergelak sorang-sorang. Jangan cakap kami ni gila, memang dah lumrah kalu bermandi hormon memang begitulah jadinya. Hari ni aku emo. Tiba-tiba rasa nak menangis. Rasa tak dihargai. Rasa cemburu dan dengki. Batinku meronta kau ulang semula menyayangi aku (aish kau dah kenapa letak lirik romancinta plak ni?). Ni mesti kes kurang hormon serotonin. Hahaha.... How to boost this hormone?? Go find friends and hug them! You will be dripping with sweet smell of serotonin, a good-feeling hormone. 





Rasa macam nak dancing. Kuar lemak-lemak degil bawah kulit ni (sambil belek spare tayar di perut). Duh.












p/s: somebody is changing. and i don't like changing. i am an advocate of homeostasis.


p/s/s: masalah utama aku ialah aku over-sensitive, especially about people around me. kalau orang sedih atau marah kat aku, aku boleh detect dengan cepatnya especially kalu orang tu jelas2 menampakkan perasaan nya tu. ada yang cuba sembunyikan tapi aku leh hidu awal2.aku ni boleh baca orang la kotnya hahaha. tapi certain orang tak suka orang macam aku nie. sebab aku suka tafsir orang. hahahahhahahaha~~~




orang instinct kuat nak buat macam mana




ripoff




Sunday, January 25, 2015

the engagement reaction


My brother's engagement day.  




All in all, BLISSFUL! A hoot and a half. It was fun getting to do the decorations for dulang hantaran with my dad. It was freakish awesome. Indeed the whole thing was tiring but somehow, there's satisfaction in it. Attaboy, Sebri Clan! Kudos to all efforts of making this event successful. 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

because i am a HUMAN

"Keep holding on. It's not like the end of the world. Even when it's the end of the world you can still plant the seed in your hand. Positive and optimistic attitude towards life can change a lot of things. never step back and think of quitting it all. You just have to recall the reason why you started. Coz life is more than what meets the eyes. Never surrender to whatever may come yourrr wayyyyy. Strive and fight and never look back. Smear your tears, smudge your fear, because for all good things to happen, there is price for you to pay...."




today i shed some coward tears and i didn't even get to finish my meal during luncheon. just because you hit a roadblock you want to give up everything you have put up all this while. please dude! don't be a chicken.




everybody faces problem. just deal with it. suck it up. buck up sissy pants.

Tegak bulu roma 90 darjah




Meremang dengar lagu Mojo masa AJL 29. Havoc la Caliph Buskers perform!!!!!!!!! Good job guys.



Sunday, January 18, 2015

Purple Craze

I am so crazy. Wanna see an ironclad proof? Just today I literally raced to Kamdar to buy a purple cotton knit cloth during my lunch hour. I had already gone to Kamdar yesterday and bought 3 colours i.e. green, dark choco and light brown, of the same fabric already (because I really love the knit cotton!) but I was torn whether or not to buy the one in dark purple colour, the favourite colour of mine. Ugh. It was an ambivalent moment which I had to endure (yeah first world problem). Then, I decided not to buy purple color because I thought I had so much purple blouses already. That thing really made me felt uneasy and my heart cant't stop beating nervously for regretting the act of not selecting the purple garment. But today, I can't help my unbridled and stirring diabolical desire to buy myself the purple cotton hence I raceddd all the way to the town to buy myself that thing!! How crazy is that???




Burberry Long Double Cashmere Trench Coat in Purple (dark magenta)
spot the vainglorious striking purple!! Me gusta~




I love dark purple/indigo! People who are inclined towards purple/indigo are said to be daydreamers. They love living in their fantasy rather than facing grey and cold truth of life. Hahahahahah! This trait is so me!!!


Check out other traits of people who are so into purple! Like me!!!

-open, flexible and understanding nature
-highly intuitive and can step into the shoes of others easily
-sought after as a trusted friend and confidant
-wise, knowledgeable and intelligent.
-very sensitive and psychic
-sense strongly the moods and emotions of others. 
-sometimes prefer times of solitude. 
-need time and space to think, meditate and contemplate on all of life's mysteries.
-highly spiritual and like to live your life balancing your mind, body and soul.
-likely to have many friends and acquaintances that you interact with well but they seldom understand the real you.







drawbacks:
1-have a tendency to have low moods, which can lead to depression.
2- susceptible to addictions.




Stay aware of your feelings, emotions and reactions to others and sense how others react to you
.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Smokers? Definite no no!

Assalamualaikum. Salam seribu kali sayang. Happy reminder. Kepada perokok tegar luar sana. tanggunglah dosa untuk setiap kepulan asap rokok yang tak pasal-pasal menusuk paru-paru orang lain yang digelar second hand smokers. anda telah merisikokan kesihatan kami, ibarat orang lain makan nangka, orang lain kene getahnya. in this case, orang lain merokok, orang lain kene emphysema. sekian~




we do not wish to have emphysema, the free prize at the last puff of your cigarette






Sunday, January 11, 2015

Rare Trolling

Semalam ada terbaca isu lamaran secara live oleh Hairul terhadap Hanis Zalikha, pasangan selesanya. Ecewah selesa gitewwww. Yang paling tak boleh blah komen pembaca yang kadang-kadang tak masuk akal dan langsung takde kena mengena dengan artikel yang dibincangkan. Memang pening lah! Hahaha. Tapi ada juga komen yang boleh buat kita tak kering gusi membacanya. 





Hari ni, masa baca komen dekat post facebook, tak semena-mena perut kembali pecah bila ada komen yang serupa pasal iklan ragut dekat TV. Tergelak aku sorang2 dalam bilik. Hahahahahha!!!!





Entah kenapa aku rasa nak tergelak tengok iklan wan maimunah kena ragut tu. Hahahahahahhaah (maafkan daku wahai akak wan maimunah)





Saturday, January 10, 2015

Bila bosan

Main piano



Belajar BI


Belajar BA



Tengok TBBT

Termenung




Berangannnnn


Hahahahahhaha~



Friday, January 09, 2015

colour me intrigued.

Joined the volunteer team from UMT to Kelantan



























Bantal tido dalam khemah IM4U~~~ okay jangan start nyanyi!!!






All in all, having fun!

Monday, January 05, 2015

Am I?





I really love music. And I love piano of all things!



Why? Maybe because the sound of piano is so melodious and calming. I remember that old day when I was pestering my father into buying a piano for me!!! I was crazy. A piano is expensive! DUh. Of course my father couldn't afford it. I still remember playing the recorder and pianica during my primary school. I love pianica! It has similar shape as piano, only that it was played by blowing it just like harmonica. So you combine piano and harmonica, you get pianica.




I love various melodies and try to replay them in my Virtual Piano on my laptop. Still, I can only play by one hand. I really wish to be able to play using both hands. It's gonna be so awesome!!! This is one of my wishes.... Though a bit ridiculous to some people, to me playing musical instrument does give you some kind of enlightened spirit and activate some parts of the brain. Music rocks!!












Sunday, January 04, 2015

Disturbed

I am not normal. I am opposite to being normal. I always find myself being isolated by the attitude of people around me. I was being a total outcast. Until today. But I must say, all this things come from me. Its ab originality is undoubtedly coming from me. I hate changes and I love ranting hahaha so that's why you can see me posting some random things here in my blog.


Err where do this come from?



I tell you where this is coming from.


I went browsing Facebook of my seniors during my high school when I found that most of them already married and have at least one child. I suddenly was being thrown back into the well of memories from when I was in the asrama during high school. I remember being treated like vermins by my seniors. They stared me so hard as if I am a criminal. I don't understand why. This went on until I finally got into Form 2. I still don't know why I was being treated like a disease. People seemed to be deserting me like I was some kind of a plague. It was horrible. I only have few friends and thankfully they really taught me happiness despite all those glaring eyes from those chauvinists. Was it the way I walked? Or they way I ate?? Or was it the way I talked? Was I a pariah??? I don't know. A lot of people seemed to be afraid of me. I failed to find the root cause of the problem. Only Allah knows.





And the same thing happened after 10 years leaving high school. When I went to attend the wedding reception of a senior who happens to be my neighbour, a lot of her colleagues and friends, who happened to also be my ex-seniors, came to celebrate her big day. When I looked at them, they seemed to have that same face when they look at me when I was in the high school, being treated like a rodent. I was feeling uncomfortable. The staring was identical to whatever thing I experienced years before. It was mind-boggling and totally bizarre. How could they be treating me like that??? What did I do???!?!




Am I cursed??!!!!




oH GOSH am I being too hormonal????



this is killing me!!!!






Love Yourself. Treasure yourself.




I often take things for granted. I have the very chance to further study using a very well-paid scholarship. I live at home. I get to drive my father's car. I get to study in my very own room which is so fortuitous since I get to put any decoration the way I want with no one to be all judgy or pedantic (duh it's my OWN room since I was like 5 years old!). I eat free. I bath free. I use free wifi and electricity. What more should I ever ask for? 



Sometimes, when people find themselves to be in a very comfy place with all those accommodation and facility laid out in front of your eyes, they feel complacent. They have no urge of thriving more diligently through things in their lives. All they do is sit back, relax and enjoy the fun life has to offer. They got stuck in the stagnant water of comfort zone. But they forget one thing, these things wont last. It will not last. Nothing ever lasts except for our Rabb Allah. So you need to use all the resources you can muster in order to keep you sailing in the right trail and not deviating from the path you are now in.



It is inevitable for one to feel insecure at some points of their lives. This is the moment when you need to sit back and try to relax. Try to remember all the good things in your life. Instead of thinking about those things you don't have, it's much much better to rekindle all the things you already have in your life. Do not always compare and complain. Always appreciate things around you. Grab the loving memories of your family and friends and keep them tight in your chest. Smile and relinquish your mind from remembering those bad scars from past days. Relieve all the negative vibes from your mind. It does nothing good actually. It burns your soul from within, smoldering under your skin and gradually get you rotten inside.



You have every chance to change into a better person. Read more. Learn more. You can be a champion in your life. The battle is with yourself, not others. 




Focus Jenny focus! Focus is the key to success~




Saturday, January 03, 2015

Life of Lies

the world is mad. really mad. i really hope i will die soon rather than having to live the life full of lies and diabolical propaganda. it's scary living in this world full of havoc.

mellow melodies

where you can reach me.

where you can reach me.

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