Saturday, August 29, 2015
Thursday, August 27, 2015
Monday, August 24, 2015
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
Semalam hati remuk berkecamuk. Kalu hari sebelumnya Allah dah campakkan rasa takut yg tiba2 datang menerpa, Semalam hati dihunus tajammya pedang kata2. Berkali2 tusukan itu dirasa menembusi jantung dan perasaan berlubang penuh kecewa.
Itulah yg berlaku jika kita terlalu selesa di ruangan comfort zone. Sekali kene tegur terus tercampak dari kerusi empuk.
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Walawehhhh. Rasa awesome sangat hari ni sebab boleh jogging lama kat stadium. Kalu bukan kerana ramai mata yg memandang aku mungkin da pusing satu tasik kat stadium tu. Aku malu. Lagi2 kalu ramai orang kat tepi laluan jogging tu. So sebab malu nye pasal aku stop separuh jalan. Tapi still melebihi aku punye jarak jogging sebelum ni. Yahoooo. Adik aku kata maybe sebab rutin kerusi bayangan yg aku amalkan selama ni akhirnya berhasil menjadikan kaki aku strong. Yeahh. Sekarang ni aku nak maintain kerusi bayangan 2 minit straight. Dan kalu bleh nak panjaaaaangkan lagi tempoh kerusi byangan kepada 5 minit. Yiehhaaa. Aim tu tinggi. Kene usaha lagi. Chaiyokkkk!
Friday, August 14, 2015
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
"You really need to sort out your priorities, "
Jamie said to me. He looked into my eyes while stuffing that super hot noodles into his wide open mouth. The clump of noodle was so big some of the people gave us weird looks. Even some of the hot gravy spilled over in front of my laptop. I pinched him so hard he almost fall off the chair.
"Oouch! Why did you do that?"
Jamie squeaked in pain. He rubbed his arm.
In remained silent. Got back to being pensive.
" I tell you what. You are not mad with your brother. You're mad with yourself,"
Jamie continues his ramblings. I just let him say whatever he wanted to say while letting him finish the hot bowl of noodles.
"No Jamie. I am mad at you,"
"What? Erm one question. What do I have anything to do with your anger? I am pretty sure you are mad with yourself aight".
He smugged. He knew I was being sarcastic. Jamie reached out to hold my hand. I dodged.
"Yeah. I am pretty much sure you are the one I'm madly angry with right now. Yeah.... it IS you, Jamie, "
Jamie choked his noodles. I laughed.
"Wha... what?? What did I do honey? "
He hurriedly wiped the noodles and pulled me away from the cafe. I was laughing so hard inside and trying to hold myself together.
I've realised that I've been living in a series of ironies. My life is nothing but ironies. Now I am building a heaven for someone who made my hell and I'm also living the lives I'd never ever imagined of living. I had been hating things but in the end I was destined to be with those I hate.
But then again, who am I to say these are all cruel? Allah decided my fate to be this way so I must accept it. No matter how much I struggle. No matter how hard it seem.
I remember how I am not supposed to eat seafood because of sinusitis I am having but being a seafood lover I'd rather face the bad consequences of horrible allergy than thwarting myself from eating my favourite seafood. What an irony it was. Hurm.
I must say that things you hate the most are most probably gonna be things you are gonna get stuck with---forever!
Sunday, August 09, 2015
Friday, August 07, 2015
Wednesday, August 05, 2015
Monday, August 03, 2015
Jannah! Semangat semangat! Cepat edit thesis elok-elok!!
Sunday, August 02, 2015
Berderau pulak darah kita bila supervisor cakap macam tu. Aduilah *facepalm*
"Err, saya tengah edit lah nie Dr. Ada sikittt je lagi Dr. Huhu," muka cuak nak kena debik.
"Ingat awak dah edit minggu lepas. Awak buat apa ni Jannah?"
"Saya memang niat nak hantar yang dah edit akhir bulan Julai baru ni Dr, tapi..."
. . .
Serius seriau tahap cipan kene langgar lari. Hum. Tulah rajin sangat pi hantar PG16 awal2. Pastu malas nak edit thesis. Tupun mujur supervisor cancel suh pegi USM run release study. Ha, kan da selamat. Hahahahaha~
p/s: lepas ni nak kena improve thesis writing. Dr kata evaluators suka literature review panjang2. adomak.