Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Free to be me and you

What? Tajuk da macam citer Supernatural plok...

See people. I'm trying to talk about the power of minds. In your mind, you can be anything - you can be a rock star, an astronaut, a traveler, a genius, a supermodel, a won't-get-to-be-fat-even-when-you-eat-a-lot-of-things eater, or even a murderer. Hahahaha. Often that I found people saying that they are killers in some days of their life. Because they would be killing a lot of despicable people in their mind just simply because it's a crime to literally kill people in real life. Lols.

As of now, I am a dancer in my mind. Like that of male kpop band. Unlike the obnoxious Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory, he who had been postulated several alternate universes, didn't even had one with him being as fun as a dancer. Instead, he chose to be a clown made of candies. Lol again. Hahahhahaa..... 

err, why do i want to be able t o dance like a male kpop band? because, unlike female kpop bands, male bands seem to have fun dancing, and they have less pervert kind of dance move. just look at famous female kpop bands nowadays. they are like bunch of cheap ladies who'd twerk to gain more popularity especially from male fans. that's what i like about several boy band. careful not to dive into the wrong fandom. hahaha. the second reason being the urge to be able to kill some fat with those vigorous dance moves. whenever i see them dance with so much fun and crazy synchronization amidst the super hard dance moves, my body seemed to be twitching with excitement, as if i was drawn to dance just like them but alas i cannot!!! it's not easy. you need to undergo aggressive training for at least 2 years okay to do all the popping, locking and all kinds of other dance moves. to be mastering all those moves is one thing, but to be able to deliver the dance with so much sleek and charming auras is another thing. take kai exo for example. he had this rigorous 5-year training before getting to debut in 2012.

okay no more ranting. this happens when you have short attention span, just like that of Penny. Lol...

p/s: Bang! Tan! Seo nyon dan cheorom!!!! (like bangtan boys).... gahahhaha

lol the puns!!!

lols. can never get enough with bts memes

Sunday, May 29, 2016


In this life, a lot of people failed me. At the end, only Allah that matters. Whenever I lost all hope and felt like I am an inch away from suicidal thoughts, I abruptly remember that Allah is up there watching, and I shall pray to Him to ease my pain. And if not, I'll be terrified at the thought of suicide consequences. I'll be burnt to eternity in the hellfire. That's the role of iman (faith) which kept me sailing no matter how hard the tide of life is.  Because we (muslims) know that YOLO doesn't exist. Why? because we never die. the soul will be for eternity. only that it leaves the host (our physical body) and will take other form in the afterlife.

YOLO means you only live once..... yolo right?!

Saturday, May 28, 2016

V for Victory

kalau edit paper sekali dengar lagu ni memang khayal molek. hmmm. paper 20 % je kot. bergaloks dgr lagu la 80% tu. lols....

gut feeling

at first, there was this weird rashes, coming out of nowhere, sitting nicely in between my inward part of the elbows. then, there was this mysterious pain sensation at toe finger - index toe of my right foot to be exact. i believed that that pain had something to do with my stomach and i rubbed it because it was too excruciating especially when i had to bend my toes during solat. usually it never happened. i can easily bend those fingers without no problem. so when i felt the pain, it made me feel strange. i was befuddled by such a thing. but when i was having my own sweet time rubbing the affected toe finger with herculean force, i become a bit flushed - my head become dizzy, and i felt like vomiting. it was like having some kind of rumble inside the tummy. the very next day, i had this violent diarrhea. it was so painful. help me! but the silver lining of the rubbing incident, was that i could wake up to a peachy morning. seriously! it's like a trick to having healthy stomach. it felt like having to be able to remove all those toxic from stomach. not only that stool can give you all health problem if not eliminated regularly, the overly gaseous stomach can also give you problems. so, take note ah. after this, rub the index toe of the right foot to stimulate good toxin elimination from your body. i really love complementary medicines because it's simply about treating your health problem just by understanding the anatomy of your body. you need to know what this body part connected to. just like in this case, the index toe of our feet serve to provide direct link to our stomach. so as experienced by myself, this reflexology point gives hints to the state of my stomach. scary aight? just like the function of the big toes of our feet. you pinch those big toes to wake up stubborn people. hahha.. lols.

told you that part of toe finger has something to do with stomach. alhamdulillah my suspicion was correct. Sekaiii!!!!

p/s: dalam internet cakap kene rub perlahan2 jari kaki tu. tapi boleh ke aku, aku urut kuat2 macam apa je... no wonder cirit. adoiii!!!! sendiri mahu ingat la jannah~~~~

My kryptonite

Yeah indeed you are my kryptonite. When I'm with you, I become weak, like I am being chained to the ground. My heart skips a beat. You're fluttering me just by being you. Your manly voice makes me so nervous. I think I am dangerously infatuated with your endless charms. Gosh this is too much I can't breathe. Salleojeo!

Friday, May 27, 2016


Phew. Here we go. 

I am sadly announcing that I am currently in yet another fandom of K-Pop group (duh). I only idly went surfing on the newcomers of K-pop industry and that's when I found Bangtan Boys. I used to come across the snippets of BTS videos as suggested by youtube before but never gave it too much thought. I actually knew EXO before Bangtan Boys maybe because of EXO's infamous label, SM Entertainment. And I was shocked to know that Bangtan Boys comes from a very small company i.e. Big Hit Entertainment as compared to SM Entertainment and YG Entertainment. I don't even recall coming across the name lols. Big Hit Entertainment was still very small and underrated company before Bangtan Boys explode and make it big. And now, BTS carries with it the glory of their unrelenting efforts to produce the best kind of music. Even the company itself had recently declared how the boy band group out-shelled the performance of other famous and established group like those from JYP Ent. No offense but at first I thought Bangtan Boys came from such big companies such as JYP  or maybe YG entertainment. When I know Bangtan boys is a newcomer, I was a little bit amazed to see how much they had accomplished given that they come from a small company and that they are the very first boy band from the company. and still, until now, BTS is the solo boy band of its company. cool huh? to survive being the only boy band in the company surely is tiring but rewarding. and what makes them good is that they come out (debut) with 7 members and until now still with the 7 members altogether.... phuh. what a camaraderie. 

At first I went to several fansites of BTS boys. And from what I read I can see that most fans are shipping Bangtan Boys more than EXO because of several key aspects. Hey no offense dear exo-ls out there. Actually I was one of the million fans of rabid EXO fandom exo-l but there are undeniably several vital characteristics that Bangtan Boys have which can be concluded as the main reasons as to their outstanding performances which is - if not even rapidly surpassing those of EXO - coming alongside famous groups like EXO and BigBang. So dear EXO-Ls who happen to be reading this, well, please read with an open mind. If you can not, please leave.

First, from what I can see when I watch those videos by Bangtan Boys, I can say that they are all talented. All seven members are capable of dancing, singing and also performing flawlessly even on live stages. No offense, but from most of EXO live stages, I can see that EXO don't perform that good on live performances as much as Bangtan Boys do. And what amazes me most is that all members of Bangtan Boys have equal chance to sing and they all can dance very nicely very steadily very smoothly and most importantly, very happily. Plus, it is so amazing and astounding that they can perform live with all those heavy dance choreography because for most Kpop groups, they would be left out of breath when they go dancing like that, hence the lip-sync. Such overly active and heavy dance choreography can actually leave anybody gasping for air but certainly not for BTS. wheww!

All seven members of Bangtan Boys are undeniably picked from the very best of the best. It's not vainglorious to say that they are the cream of the crop of K-pop groups as of the time being. Each member is very talented: they all have distinct characters and personalities. I love how J-Hope and V being crazy all the time. These two dorks are their all-time troublemakers. They would laugh crazily, jump all around and always react in an extra way as compared to other members. Their ecstatic personalities really can lighten everyone's mood. V is one shameless little boy. Haha. He is sooooo cute and with that overly confident attitude, kind of make you wanna squish him. V can even make lame jokes brazenly in front of the camera, leaving other members feeling ashamed instead (HAHAH!!). Jimin is fierce on stage but all cutie-pie in person. He is also clumsy and absent minded when he got punished in Weekly Idols for messing up their random dance choreography (lol). Jin, their oldest member, is a timid sunbae who served as BTS main vocal. He is a steady man who is diligently looking after his juniors. Jin is nicknamed Princess because of his cute facial features (glowing alabaster skin). The superrrrrr talented maknae, Jung Kook, dances really well and has been scouted by 8 companies before joining BTS (bow wow wow!!) but lastly chose to be a part of BTS after seeing Rap Monster performed (yeahhh eureummie Jung Kook, seukeireun jeonguk - my name is Jung Kook, my scale is nationwide). Indeed.

Rap Monster is their leader by the way. Nam Joon is called Rap Monster for several valid reasons you would discover after watching their mvs yourself ahha. He is an amazing rapper for sure. One thing worth noting about Rap Monster is that he is a genius rapper prodigy. With an IQ of 140 plus (I don't really remember), he really is something. He has been a rapper of an underground Korean hiphop group before making debut under BTS. To me, Rap Monster has such unique skills in rapping. His English pronunciation is outstanding and clear in the way that added extra spices to their songs.


To put cherry on top - and to make me go wild with excitement after becoming an ARMY(BTS fanclub)- those boys actually compose their own songs!!!!!!! that's DOPE okay? just like their seniors who they all looked up to, Big Bang, BTS boys are also free to create their own song. Suga, also the rapper, is such an amazing songwriter. Suga, RapMon and J-Hope are among the earliest members who got involved with the composing team. Later, other members (Jimin and V) got to join them in composing the songs in their latest comeback. See how unique each BTS member is?

They really are something. Some fans even quoted that BTS is the K-Pop group which had set a brand new level of standard into Kpop industry as a whole. To me, I agree. And I love how crazy they are and they are such wackadoodles. Hhahaha. They become lyricists and composers of their own song. How great is that? Not many entertainment company allowed their artists to freely sing their own songs. that's very awesome of you Big Hit Entertainment. Ahhahahah. That's probably the reason why happiness clearly sparks from their very performance, reality show and interview. Bangtan Boys give their all during performance and we can see that from their synced dance moves coupled with stable vocal which is well woven with their endless moxie. They all seem so happy to come up with their own brand of music. And when they are happy, the popularity skyrocketed and shocked everyone in the Kpop entertainment, from the management lines, fellow entertainers to the rabid fandom. In addition, BTS is more free when it comes to expressing their feelings in interviews and reality shows. Unlike some group, BTS seemed to be speaking from their hearts instead of having their scripts rehearsed. It's something noteworthy. To me, BTS is lucky to be free just like that. I don't say that they are given total freedom in expressing the music, but what they already have is enough to paint rainbow on their days. 

I really like how their songs are meaningful and they are unlike other kpop bands. somehow, we (fans) can relate to the lyrics in the song. to be able to create their own music, and to be able to perform flawlessly on stage, really is amazing. i can say that Bangtan Boys is true artist. Hahahaha. 

Thanks to Kim Taehyung (V), now I am head over heels for this fandom. Lols..

bow wow wow!

the only irony is that even coming with those cutesy faces and candy-coloured hair, their overall theme is actually wild and beasty. just look at how innocent V is. but when he comes out and scream and shout, you'll see how his hoarse voice starts to contradict all his cute appearance. 

V sure is the most dorky guy who came straight out of manga/anime.

p/s: writing the post while listening to BTS songs.... feeling goood.


Hi salam Jumaat yuols. Betul lah macam Nabi cakap. Balaslah kejahatan dengan kebaikan. Kebaikan dibalas dengan kebaikan memang lah normal. Biase dah dengar. Tapi kejahatan yg dibalas dgn kebaikan tu rare. Super rare susah nak jumpe satu dalam seribu agaknya. dan mmg susah nak latih diri sendiri utk buat mende tu. Tapi bayangkan kalau kita balas kejahatan dengan kejahatan.. Evil will propagate and a series of unfortunate events shall escalate to an unending story. Hence better stop at that. If positive charge is thrown at negative charge, it will happily cancel each other. Happy ending. Hehe. Just imagine what happened if you throw negative charge to another negative charge. What happens? Chaos.

Hence, learn to open your heart to FORGIVENESS.

K bai.. nak mandi pahtu lunch.


aka zero tolerance.

susah nak jadi orang yg tak tolerate nie. contohnya bila kau tak boleh tolerate dengan isu kebersihan. memang kene bersih. wajib bersih. kalau tak, mesti berbulu mata tu. jangan baring atah katil aku. jangan makan atah katil aku. dan jangan kotorkan katil aku dgn bontot kau please. begitulah kekdohnya. mesti orang mudah nak benci kat kau. ala, nak lepak2 sekejap atah katil pon tak boleh ke. kerek ah minah nie. haha.... orang macam ni da dekat ngan OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) dah. tapi aku takdelah sampai tahap OCD sampai tak boleh duduk diam selagi tak bersih atau yang jenis basuh tangan sepanjang masa (50 kali sehari). but i had undeniably had an arguably worrying certain degree of ocd sebab everytime kemas rumah, dekat 10 kali jugak kot ulang alik pegi sink - basuh tangan. sebab was2 asyik rasa kotor je. tapi dulu rase aku penah je ada OCD. sebab selagi tak bersih setiap inci rumah, aku akan rasa tak tenang. tak tenteram tak keruan. distraught. haha.... seakan sia-sia je cuci umah bila ada walau seciput je lagi mende tak kemas. am i perfectionist or what. lol. maybe because i have my own standard. tu yang susah. even when nak memasak aku ikut resepi. tapi xde la sampai follow the recipe to the letter. lols. cuma if takde satu je bahan, aku akan keruan and bimbang untuk proceed. cewahh... susah betul. aku sangat respek if orang boleh masak makanan kebabommm even when the ingredients are not enough.... that's true cook, i guess. aku sampai boleh jadi stress bila takde barang yang na kena masak tu. okaylah bye nak gi beli sos tiram jap.hahahah~

Thursday, May 26, 2016


Got this Ribba frame from #ikea. My sister @_hayatimohd  be like "Wey ni barang riba nie. Dose beli," gahahaha. Lols. Muka sape la ye akan end up dalam frame ni yer... hmmm. harap that special some1 would be filling in my one and only black frame in the near future (you wish jannah).

Haruman neowa naega hamkkehal su itdamyeon

Haruman neowa naega sonjabeul su itdamyeon

Just one day, if I can be with you,

Just one day, if I can hold your hands,

 #bts #justoneday

haruman is not bau bauan. haruman is 'just one day' in korean okay peeps.


Wednesday, May 25, 2016



nah! banner untuk setiap social account aku. menggatal je tangan nak design mende nie. haha. setiap design ada beza dia tau. gambar maskot mongoose yg tengah main pianica tu bukan sahaja melambangkan minat dan cinta aku terhadap music (piano especially), ia juga melambangkan kadar keaktifan aku (anthropomorphism). hahaha. kalau tgok utk blogspot, mongoose nodame tu mainkan paling banyak note pianica siap teleng2 kepala dia. haha comel betul. bermakna aku paling aktif dalam menulis dan mengedit laman blog aku nie. paham? humm. kalu facebook, pun banyak jugak note, cuma dia takde la teleng sangat. hehe. tapi kalu instagram, memang paling kurang aktif. sebab tu lah nodame steady je. xde la nak goyang goyang dumang sangat. kahkah!!

 ni ha, header blog. nampak sangat hantu kaler ungu. and not to mention, the unbridled passion for music. hrmmm..... 

Broken Dream

I have been dreaming about you lately. What baffled me most is the fact that she also appeared in the same dream. We were having so much fun - the three of us. It's just like those three kids frolicking around in the playground, which reminds me specifically of the last scenes of I Miss You when Jung Woo and Seo Hyeon were imagining what would have been should the three of them have met one another that way.

I really appreciate it if you would go away from my life. Please don't haunt me right into my sleep. I know it's hard to put the feeling of love to your first crush away but I really want to move on with my life. You have your own life. And i also do have my own life which I am desperately living. No matter how sweet the dream was, we all know that it is hopeless to cling on to unrequited love. And even though people say that perhaps having someone appearing in your dream means they are actually missing you is nothing but a balderdash, that short moment really gave me a little happiness. But still, I must not waver. Live in reality please.

Gimme Some Bangtan

Just one day.

I need you.




We Are Bulletproof


Boy in Luv

was shocked to learn how talented these kids are. not only they have good voice and dancing skills, they also composed their songs!!!!! waawwww bangtan boys rocks!!!! welcome me to another fandom of kpop. ARMY me, dorky me.. .hahahha. bow wow wow!!!!

BTS Taehyung (V), muka sebijik Baekhyun lols


mellow melodies

where you can reach me.

where you can reach me.