and some people just know nothing about the struggle - the pain of the remorse, the unending regret, the beguiling temptations. each of us has our own devil, the alter ego we must face and beat to the ground before it takes its turn knocking us down once we lost our guard.
then again, who says we couldn't atone for the bad deeds we had done in the past. it's a fact that He is forgiving, but the only problem is we fail to forgive ourselves and ended up delving into the same destructive pit again and again. please wake up, before the end of the day when you can no longer wake up from the nightmare of death.
"Once you commit a wrong thing, it could be considered a mistake, but the second time is called CHOICE." (Dean Winchester)
so if you choose to keep making mistakes, then the blame is entirely on you...