Saturday, July 23, 2016
Friday, July 22, 2016
Baru2 ni pegi berubat sakit perut dengan moknab. Rumah dia kat merchang. Ade lah dalam 1 jam lebih perjalanan dari gong badak. Dia urut pakai minyak nyior pastu bagi air tawar. Then suruh aku cari putik limau nipis utk kemam sebagai ubat angin. Alhamdulilah, sejak amal apa yg dia suh, mmg da okay elimination system aku. Hehe. Tapi siyes ubat dia tu yakni putik limau tu panas. Bila makan badan dehydrated. Bangun pagi xyah bother to void the bladder. Lols. Hmm. Ubat2 traditional ni aku prasan mostly ubat panas. So kene compensate air dalam badan. Dia banyak pakai air utk healing process tu. Hihi.
Lagi satu ubat kuat utk constipation is daun muda gelenggang. Tumbuk and campur ngan kapur, barut di perut. Mmg clear jalan berduri dalam usus. Hehe.
Monday, July 18, 2016
Saturday, July 16, 2016
Thursday, July 14, 2016
Am I a hikikomuri and/ or otaku?
I'm probably akin to the people in Japanese movie Uzumaki. Obsessed people in the story were all gradually becoming crazy. Obsession is something dangerous. It eats you from inside. It makes you care about nothing else in this world. It gets you preoccupied and leave you dissolved in your own little world. Nothing can quench that thirst. You just keep wanting more. Like the way dopamine works, it spurs your inner desire into wanting more and more. And the deeper you got into that forest of desire, the more you realize that each next thing you stumble must be more appealing and more enjoying than the last. And before you realize it, the will to discover more of it is growing bigger and the intensity was crazily amplifying. You end up digging and digging more of it. But the hole just gets bigger, as if nothing would ever do the good job filling it in. There's just no end to your obsession. Just see how many great people who were driven to lunatics as they dive into their world of obsessions. Obsessions could be good at time as it could help people laser-focus into solving the problems. And being absorbed in things can make you become more open to other alternatives and make you more creative in solving problem. But obsession can also lead you into becoming oblivious about other important things in life that you eventually risk losing a lot.
Wednesday, July 13, 2016
Allah swt sangat baik. Bila kita ni banyak dose pon, dia masih makbulkan doa2 kita. Allah maha pengasih dan penyayang. Pintu keampunan untuk hamba-Nya sentiasa terbuka luas...cuma kita je sombong. Malas nak berdoa. Doa masa susah je. Sbb tu kene bersyukur time Dia bagi susah. Dia tahu kau hanya cari Dia time susah. Kalu boleh susah senang pon kene cari Dia sokmo. Susah senang ke cuba cakap dengan Dia. Mengadu hal dengan Dia. Orang lain tak care ke mung kalu mu ngadu hal ke orang lain. Dia dengar ucapan langsung mahupun bisikan hati yg tersembunyi. Bersangka baiklah dengan Allah. Yakin dgn rancangan-Nya. Sabar. Usaha dan ttawakkal in sha Allah berjaya.
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
The peak was so high that it gave me a chill down my spine. I am not someone who is afraid of height coz i can simply climb a scaffold for a flying fox without even a hint of fear, unlike some of my friends who'd clutch to the rusty handle steel bars begging for their dear life wanting to stop from resuming those steps. But that time, i was trembling with fear. I tried to scream, but my voice couldn't find it's way out. It echoed and bounced inside while amplifying the terror inside me, making me feel fragile and vulnerable. But at some point, the peak seemed to change to become like an old iron scaffold, the one you usually see at a construction site.
I am an introvert. I don't really fancy small talks and i love to be absorbed in my own thought. Coz small talks are ... i dunnow how to put it. Vexing? But even when i am at it, i still cannot eat alone. I cannot bear the thought of having to have my meal all by myself. Even when i am an introvert, i enjoy close friends' companions, especially when i am having my decent meal. I'd rather eat in a confined room all alone instead of eating alone in a crowd. I enjoy conversations especially intellectual ones, but i find in more relishing to be able to have such conversations with the ones i am comfortable with. Yes, we are loyal people. But as said here, we introverts find it quite hard to move on. Even when we may seem distant and lonely, but we make good friends. Confide in introverts, and you'll find it so pleasant as we could be the bestest kind of friends. Relationships with introverts are for a lifetime. Agree much?
Monday, July 11, 2016
then after i finished my lunch, i saw him drawing near me. he was standing at my feet while making a cute face, a face that tells you that he was still hungry. oh damn. cats really can give you that dewy-eyed look and melt you heart. it's one of the specialties of cats, a powerful persuasive gesture. i grabbed half of another fish and put down at his feet and he devoured it in split second. i myself had another helping for the fish. then when i was washing the dish, he was there standing at the wooden floor with his eyes staring into mine. i smiled and asked,
wanna have some more (fish)?
he didn't respond, nor did he meow back. he kept on staring at me with a loving gaze, as if wanting to tell something. but he couldn't. he usually would meow or give that slow blink as a form of response (aside from a sign of trust) but this time nothing came. i was a bit befuddled. he usually responded as a way of saying thank you master for feeding me i'll pray for your safety and health. his stance was a bit gloomy. maybe he understood how lonely i was. thanks Dido. people might think i am crazy for trying to get approval from animals. am I?
No. crazy is hearing voices, talking to cats, dating paula abdul (Superhero movie).
but i am not crazy. everyone in this house talks to cats. and cats also talk back to us, in their own way of course. (LMFAO)