Thursday, January 19, 2017


hi guys.

it's been a while. hisashiburidane!!!!

i've been in a hiatus. i was bored. i did nothing but self loathing lol. 

while at it, i opted for reading another book: For One More Day by Mitch Albom. this book superseded  exceeded my expectation!!!  it's dope!

i found a striking similarity between this book and Murakami's Kafka on the shore, especially when the protagonist was claimed to have killed someone and then went on a freakish adventure into another parallel universe where dreams come true. it's tad awkward to have come across two similar books at the same time. or maybe that's the trend of nowadays' best-selling books - they carry the similar horrifying nature-bending genre.

but all in all, i find this book interesting. it's about a man who failed in life and wanted to kill himself, it is somehow relatable to me, to how i feel right now.  it makes me realize how life is to be celebrated, no matter how much you failed. keep walking! believe good things are happening at the end of this black tunnel. have faith!

looking at the title of the book somehow reminds me of Just One Day BTS. 

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Cypher part 4

I love
I love
I love myself,

I know,
I know,
I know myself,

You player haters used to love yourself, ugh!

Appreciate yourself, love yourself.
Reward yourself, be yourself.
Love yourself before wanna be loved.
Trust yourself before wanted to be trusted.
Believe in yourself before wanted to be believed.

Live your life. Be happy. Never put yourself down. Never say bad things to yourself or to other people. Be positive. You are precious. Even when a lot of people failed you, you must believe that someday, there'll be that someone who can truly see the light inside you, who can appreciate the rarest value you have that only he can see and treasure. Believe in that. Believe in Allah.

Friday, January 13, 2017

Hand Fetish

I have this weird obsession - hand fetish.

Is it wrong to like hands of all other body parts?

To me, hands are the most beautiful part of human body. Why? Coz one single hand has about 20 bones, the highest amount of bone a limb can have. That's why the movement of hand is hard to copy, especially when you are sketching this marvelous human body part. I myself always failed to finish a decent drawing of hand, coz hands are amazingly unique and meticulously crafted by God. You can see how hard it is to imitate a hand movement in those robotic hands when they kind of move awkwardly.

Hands are unique and I love my big hands. Haha.

Thursday, January 12, 2017

Friday, January 06, 2017

mellow melodies

where you can reach me.

where you can reach me.