Sunday, August 27, 2017

Heavy: Analysis and Counter Lyrics

I kind of like this song. Because somehow it reflects how I was feeling last year (and maybe even now?). Depression is real. And some say it's common to face depression once in a while because we are human and we can't escape imperfections. One thing leads to another, tipping off the set of domino pieces leaving us feeling all grumpy and sad and mad, which subsequently shoved us into state of withdrawal and isolation. And being humans, we are bound to feel sad and mad, making us even go down to our knees. But remember not to be in such state of emotion for too long because it's detrimental. It can literally eat you from inside. It makes you feel sick. Mental sickness can be very harmful coz it can propagate and make you fall ill. Try going out, see people and talk to people. Find someone who can understand and acknowledge your feelings. You would be surprised as to the fact that there are more people who are in similar state as you are (more than you could ever imagine). The main problem here is that people are afraid to come out admitting their feelings coz mental illness is deemed to be such a huge stigma. This dogma should be erased, coz it keeps on making people fall more into destructive spirals once their voices becoming unheard.



Somehow the song Heavy reflects the feeling of depressed people in our society. It represents the real turbulence in the hearts of those people experiencing depression and anxiety on the daily basis.  The song reeks of depression and anxiety at a very high level. Generally, the lyrics displayed the writer's feelings of insecurity and uncertainty, to which he has an internal battle within himself. He overthinks, pessimistic, self-centered, frustrated and easily agitated by little things. Overall, it seems like the writer perceive the world as a glass half empty instead of half full. This is something we should change for us to be living with a healthy state of mind. People say that happiness is the state of mind and if you can change the way you are thinking, you can surely live a happy life. 


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I don't like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary (so stop overthinking)

Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go, but there's comfort in the panic (the dilemma of depressed people, we don't dare and in fact terrified to take risks despite feeling like letting go off of everything. If only letting go is easy)


And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me (depressed people are anxious, often take things too personally)
Yeah, I drive myself crazy
'Cause I can't escape the gravity (the feeling of wanting to get away from the painful reality)


I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy? (the overwhelming feelings had caused tight chest)
Holding on
To so much more than I can carry (the feeling of near-giving up coz everything feels so burdening)


I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free (Like I said, if only letting go is that easy)
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?




You say that I'm paranoid

But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me (pessimistic and too negative thinking)
It's not like I make the choice
To let my mind stay so fucking messy (internal struggle against the negative vibes)


I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same (I know I shouldn't be selfish and not everything is about me, but you always make me feel like I am everything to you)
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same


I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
To so much more than I can carry


I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?


I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same


And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me


Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
To so much more than I can carry


I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?


Why is everything so heavy?

Why is everything so heavy?

Monday, August 21, 2017

can i?

i wanna talk with you about something. 

what?

i want you to be my special someone. 

??? (shocked)

what? why? 


coz i see you as a potential partner.


*thinking*


let me get this straight. we have been friends all this while and now you wanna push it to the next level? 


yep.


*pensive*


i am kind of unstable right now. if you want me to be your gf or whatever fancy name they call it nowadays, that's okay we can give it a shot, but you need to know first thing about me is that, i am such a mess. 


so what?


so you need to bear in mind that i can be mentally disturbed at times. 


(lols)


so are you willing to take the risk?



why not? i got nothing to lose. 



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Sunday, August 06, 2017

you never walk alone

nothing is truer than that. 


often i think i was all alone in living in this world. alone here means that i was the only one being tested, in a particular personal way. in fact, upon meeting a lot of people and trading stories with them, i realized how similar we truly are. that's why when you feel down or upset, find someone to talk about it. its okay to expose your vulnerability to those who care. this is one of the ways to bounce back to your natural self and to  help you move on. 


it was such a big epiphany when i figured that most of my friends are experiencing the same thing as mine. you don't realize how many people around you with whom you share the same common grounds. just go out of your isolation, meet people, ask their stories, and you will be bewildered. 


all in all, you truly never walk alone.


mellow melodies

where you can reach me.

where you can reach me.

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